Today is “National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Day.” Today, like every day, we thank God for our precious Heidi Lee. We deeply mourn her absence as well as gratefully rejoice her presence with the Saints. This October day has been like most days here at Bluebird Haven. We’ve been working on our various projects around the house… I am not doing the knitting for this project *sigh*. I don’t have nimble fingers for this sort of thing though I do love to knit when I have the time to focus on it. My knitting-machine friend over at Slouch Babies (check out her Facebook page!) is going to use these two skeins to make a cap, sweater, and leggings for EveyBaby. I had originally ordered these colors from Knit Picks last year as an “art and grief” project for myself, since I’d used lavender gray for Heidi’s nursery. Everley will get to sport her big sister’s style 😉 We started off our day making faces with Little Hiccup. Her project of late has obviously been GROWING! …
Autumn is a subdued, settled season for me. The slide from red to orange to brown and then the slump into gray mellows me into contemplative, introverted, creative solitude. How apropos that I should be having my first child during this season as it affords me the luxury of misty mornings, crisp afternoons, subtle evenings; I relax and rest and quietly nest and wait in our little abode on the hill.
I often look myself in the mirror and say, “I can’t believe you’re having a kid. You’re still a kid.” Alas, we are all children when we have children. It seems that is just how God designed it to be. When I was a kid, I really liked to dress up and… imagine that… I still like to dress up! I guess because I never grew up, haha. I’ve been finding new ways to wear outfits with this third trimester belly. Amazingly enough, there are only four more weeks left until Baby Girl’s due date. I wouldn’t be surprised if she delays her debut, so it actually could be seven more weeks till we get to meet her. Ah, C’est la vie. In any case, it seems it’s a gradual change of season from warmer to cooler, and I am still getting by with a few non-maternity sweater tops from last year’s wardrobe and some of my favorite maternity staples.
So Autumn is here and as my engineer astronomy-enthusiast father likes to remind me with the change of season, “The Autumnal Equinox will take place and then it will be officially Autumn. I will be happy to announce it to you the day it happens.” Thank you, Dad, for always staying in synch with the forces of nature, as it were. I am sort of “in touch” myself here on the other side of the mountain.