Year: 2015

First Birthday: a Letter

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Dear Heidi, This day last year I was nursing you, snuggling you, praying over you, smelling you, kissing you. It’s hard to believe an entire year has passed in between that moment and now. An entire year of not being with you. 361 days without you in my arms. I miss you, Heidi girl. You know what? Your arrival into this world was just so crazy! You totally caught me by surprise, girlfriend. You’d been a bun in the oven for 38 weeks, and I thought we still had some bake time left. But, nope, you up and decided that since mom had too many brownies on Halloween the caffeine would help you out on the descent. And sure enough did you descend! I knew my body was in the process of preparing to bring you into the world, but I didn’t know you’d come flying. Do you remember that? The truth is, we here on Earth don’t remember those kinds of things, but somehow I suspect that you understand or know a lot of …

October: the 15th

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Today is “National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Day.” Today, like every day, we thank God for our precious Heidi Lee. We deeply mourn her absence as well as gratefully rejoice her presence with the Saints.   This October day has been like most days here at Bluebird Haven. We’ve been working on our various projects around the house… I am not doing the knitting for this project *sigh*. I don’t have nimble fingers for this sort of thing though I do love to knit when I have the time to focus on it. My knitting-machine friend over at Slouch Babies (check out her Facebook page!) is going to use these two skeins to make a cap, sweater, and leggings for EveyBaby. I had originally ordered these colors from Knit PicksĀ last year as an “art and grief” project for myself, since I’d used lavender gray for Heidi’s nursery. Everley will get to sport her big sister’s style šŸ˜‰ We started off our day making faces with Little Hiccup. Her project of late has obviously been GROWING! …