All posts tagged: Jesus

Heart Ache :: Take Heart

Weeks have gone by without writing, because I’ve been savoring this sweet summer with my nearly one-year-old daughter. Though I live the typical cloistered motherhood life for now, I choose not to disconnected from the newsfeed of the world. Something I remember registering when Heidi passed so suddenly was that I was not the only one suffering, in tremendous pain, unspeakably devastated, questioning God. It felt like the world around me was silent, content, and peaceful, but even though I “felt” that way didn’t mean it was true. The truth is I met and continue to meet people who are suffering serious hardships. The truth is – the world is always suffering, because it’s tainted by evil. This Sunday morning, a breezy July day, my husband and I woke up late and after much discussion resigned ourselves to staying home for personal, rather than corporate, worship. We played some uplifting music and then sat on our porch to watch an online sermon. The moment seemed so tranquil but the message was not about tranquility. Rather …

Together: In the Storm

Many of you, my friends, are petitioning God for relief at this juncture in your life. Maybe you’ve lost another child, maybe you’re in the hospital with a serious illness, maybe you’re alone and lonely, maybe you doubt your marriage will be restored, maybe you don’t know how to escape from your abuser. My friend, I am praying for you today. Fervently, continually, faithfully, passionately. I have been to very dark places in my journey with Jesus. Have you heard of the book Hind’s Feet in High Places? I love that little book. I read it as a teenager and cried my way through the allegory. Much-Afraid’s journey is much like my own… When I wonder about life, when I am tempted to despair, when I question God’s choices, when I feel overwhelmed- I envision myself walking on the beach with God. By His side, watching His pierced feet press into the sand, reaching out to hold His hand as He reaches for mine, sensing His understanding as I walk with my head down and …

Christmas: My Miracle

We all look for some little miracle during the Christmas season. Even if it’s the miracle of our spouse remembering what we really wanted under the tree, or just remembering again the miracle of Jesus’s birth in a stable manger. We want to see a miracle. It’s the season for miracles. Well, would you like to hear about my Christmas miracle this year? It’s quite a story of brokenness and redemption. The gift of miracles when it seemed all hope was lost. As I’ve reminisced and revisited memories of this past year in two letters written to two different women who have also tragically lost, I’ve shared my heart about the events of 2015 and how we ended up surviving & arriving at Christmas this year. In these excerpts you’ll see the miracle of this Christmas….   A few days or weeks, time was a blur, after Heidi’s sudden death I was able to visualize the whole event in my mind. For a while I blocked it, which is a common response to trauma. I …

Quotations: Relational Rock

the purpose of man is to know God and enjoy him forever. how can we know him? how can we enjoy him unless we know his character? by reading what he wrote about himself through those divinely chosen and inspired to share about their relationship, experiences with him… this is what david shared about his relationship with God: “the Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom i take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. i call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised, and i am saved from my enemies.” – Psalm 18:2-3 on this dreary february fourth, this devotional reading explains the second verse of the psalm in more poignant detail: “ROCK – a picture of stability and security; FORTRESS – a place of refuge to run for defense and protection; DELIVERER – one who is mighty and powerful enough to rescue you from everything; GOD – everything i will ever need, my all in all; STRENGTH – a …

Sunday Morning : North Star

  “For I know that my Redeemer lives… And after my skin has been thus destroyed, yet in my flesh I shall see God, whom I shall see for myself, and my eyes shall behold, and not another.” -Book of Job 19:25-27     May the compass of our hearts be pointing due north – as in Job’s heart, as in the magi’s hearts – so as to have true Hope that though this life is mortal, we are immortal through the resurrection of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior; He has made a way for us and we can trust in His righteousness, His complete authenticity. We will be with Him forever in paradise. Thank you, God, for this eternal gift through your Son Jesus. Mary, the mother of Jesus, proclaimed with joy of her miraculous pregnancy: “My soul magnifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior… And His mercy is for those who fear Him from generation to generation… He has helped His servant Israel in remembrance of His mercy” -Book of …